Sea Shells Sea Shells on the Sea Shore

As she laughed I was aware of becoming involved in her laughter and being part of it, until her teeth were only accidental stars with a talent for squad-drill. I was drawn in by short gasps, inhaled at each momentary recovery, lost finally in the dark caverns of her throat, bruised by the ripple of unseen muscles. An elderly waiter with trembling hands was hurriedly spreading a pink and white checked cloth over the rusty green iron table, saying: “If the lady and gentleman wish to take their tea in the garden, if the lady and gentleman wish to take their tea in the garden…” I decided that if the shaking of her breasts could be stopped, some of the fragments of the afternoon might be collected, and I concentrated my attention with careful subtlety to this end.

T. S. Eliot

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Funny quote I got from my father.

Thank You.

Today is a hard day. I have to face some stuff that I have been putting off for a long time. But enough is enough and I’m under pressure from family and close friends to talk to more people about my anxiety. Often it’s good to be anxious as it makes for a lot of energy and ideas. But when there’s too much it is dangerous and debilitating and the ideas turn to shit and don’t get realised anyway.

So here’s a joke to lighten my day. I used to say this kind of thing whenever anyone tried to give me advice that I didn’t like. I would blame people and places and circumstances for my mistakes. But the same kind of patterns have played themselves out on a few different continents  and with lots of different people. I’m the kind of person who tries to fix everything alone. I avoid doctors for all injuries like the plague as far as possible. But I’m at the point now when I’m realising my own limits and accepting that I often don’t know best.

Most of the time I am quite happy and contented. But for quite a few months of each year I feel like a complete fucking train wreck and can hardly sleep and forget to eat.

I’m sick of it now and I need a rest before I carry on. Without such nice family and friends I wonder where I would be now. More and more I realise how important it is to keep close to them. Together we’re much stronger. Alone we’re crazy fools.

Thank You.